In some respects, it feels like it has been for.ev.er since they were born; and in other respects, I can't believe how quickly it's gone. I was only just getting the hang of parenting twins when we found out (unexpectedly) that I was pregnant with Nathan, and in the blink of an eye I was, quite suddenly, a mother to three children under the age of 2. Add a full-time job into the mix and, well, you can imagine how the last few years have seemed a little foggy.
I don't know how to say it other than to say that I feel like I'm slowly waking up from a long nap. Things seem brighter, and happier somehow. I am enjoying spending time with my children, and laughing with them, rather than constantly changing them and feeding them and rocking them to sleep and worrying about whether or not I was giving them enough attention.
And I don't think I'm the only one that is noticing. The kids seem happier lately. (And by happy I mean they are only screaming, crying, and fighting 75% of the time, instead of 90%). Michael surprised me with flowers today...a token of affection that I haven't seen in years (not that he's not affectionate....but we have definitely felt too busy and overwhelmed for any romantic gestures). And colleagues at work have been so complimentary lately, too. I can't tell you how happy this makes me, since three and a half years ago my post-partum depression was so bad that I felt I would never be happy again.
I know I still have many busy years ahead. But I certainly appreciate how far I've (WE'VE) come. :)
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